Rindu kawan ku..,

This song specially dedicate for my very besfren..

Search in the internet.., Rindu kawanku.., by maya karin..

Tentunya..,

Jika ku..,
Mencoba..,
Dengan lebyh daya..,

Mungkin ku di situ..,

Bersama dengan mu..,

Cerita..,

Yang ku tahu..,

Kau berjaya..,

Di dalam hidup mu..,

Namun dikau jauh..,

Jauh dari ku..,

Ku rindu..

Pada waktu kecil..,

mungkin kau lupa..,

Berlari bersama ..,

pinggiran desa..,

Larian ku..,

larian mu..,

sama laju...,

Dikau kawan ku..,

Dalan pondok kecil..,

Kita berteduh..,

setelah gerimis..,

malam berlabuh..,

Dan tangis ku..,,

Jua tangis mu..,

Masa..,

Tlah berubah..,

Dan kita..,

Tlah lama terpisah..,

Degup jantungku..,

Hanya menyatakan..,.

ku rindu..,

Ain.., Suhana.., Izzat...

Ain.., sowie sbb tinggalkan hmp sowg2 kat kmpp... perkenalan kita adalah suatu yg penuh bermakna dlm hidop km..sowg yg sgt sabar ngan sikap km.. tq ain..

Suhana..,

don't ever think i forget about u..,

km maseh ingt.., suatu petang tue.., pas kita stayback masa nak pmr..

kita men hujan tepi pdg sek badlishah..

pastu kita dudul dpn pdg tue..,

kat ctue juga..,

kita bedua rasa risaw akan terpisah...

Izzat..,

Sejak darjah lima lg kita jd besfren..

Ingt lagy.., masa kita sek rendah.., slalu men kejar2 .., men hoki sama2..

sampai skang.., persahabatan kita x pnh putus..

Ain.., suhana.., izzat.. dalam hidup km... hmp adalah owg2 yg km paling syg selepas family km...

pls dun forget our relationship.. it will never end...

Suddenly...,

Xpenah letyh.., utk menulis tentang dia..


hampir sebulan ak dibumi annbiya nie.., memang suatu perubahan yg ketara.. tp stakat nie haty ak maseh kuat.., housemate.., kwn2 dan senior byk membantu.. but then.., how can i declare someone here is my bestfren..? maybe its very new here for me ...





Ain.., where r u.. ?? sejarah idop ak..., ak selalu tinggalkan kwn baek ak utk ke tempat len.. kali nie.., ak rindu sgt ngan bestfren ak sowg nie.. nak cite psal dia ..



tingat lagy ak.., kalo masa nak withdraw duit tue.. wajib atm kena kepong.. hehe.. slalu je nak baca benda kat skrin atm kuat2.. padahal duet de bape puluh jer... skali tue.., masa nga lalu depan mesin atm.., tibe2 jer siren kecemasan berbunyi.. yg lwaknyer.. ak ngan ain sengaja bt2 takowt mcm kitorg yg bersalah.. pastu bt muka cemas la..haha..



pastu kalo pegy klas tue.., wajib dua org km smpai lambt .. apatah lagy amali kimia.. hehe.. ain slalu tido sampai x sedar owg miss call kejut kan dia.. bila dtg klas.. slumber badak bt muka slumber.. hehe..

km dorg suka mkn time dlm dewan kuliah.. hee.. kenangan yg paling susah skali ak nak lupa .. masa tue.. duduk barisan blkg.., atas skali.. dua2 org ngantok.. tiba2.. otak km disegarkan ngan satu bau yg menyayat hati nie.. hehe.. "bau stokin" ... heheh.. ak da tutup idung da ngan tdg.. pastu ain tanya.., 'nape pain tutup idung?' hehe.. padahal dia pown bau jg.. tp dia still co0l ag...

yg best nyer tue,.. bley pula tuan punyer stokin tue tanya.., 'knp weyh..? busuk ker?' heheh.. ak ngan ain pown ngan penuh rasa segan silu.., ckp.. " xla.. sj nak bau tdg".. hehe...pe hal la kan,, heheh..

ade ag banyak citer psal ak ngan de.. tp panjang sgt.. nanty kita sambung ag.. heheh..

Hidup br..,

Sudah lebyh kurang 2 minggu ak di bumi anbiya ini.. rindukan rumah.., pastinya akan datang.. tatkala ak duduk seorg diri.... beribu persoalan yg hadir menjenguk minda ku kini... usah ditanya.., apa perasaan ku sekarang.., kesunyian yg teramat sgt.. wlaupun senyum dan tawa yg selalu terpancar di wajah ku..

Bukan meminta simpati.., hanya ingin berkongsi sejenak yg lahir dari haty ak.. bt pertama kali nya.., di sini.. ak menitiskan air mata.. untk suatu gurau jenaka yg normal sj... dlm mengusap air mta.., ak berfikir mengapa ak mnjadi terlalu sensitif ari nie.. hurmmm.., mungkin k br sdar kerinduaan yg teramat sgt di sudut aty ku ak kpd keluarga dan kwn2 di Malaysia...

setiap hari.., ak nak call mak ngan abah.. tp haty nie masih x kuat.. biarlah ak biasakan diri dulu di sini.., sampai lega rasa di aty nie... br bley dgr suara mak ngan abah... ak harap sgt.., ak dtg ke bumi tanta nie.., bukan sekadar utk menuntut ilmu dunia.., bahkan akhirat jg... br berbaloi dgn segala pengorbanan yg dilakukan oleh kedua ibu ayah ku...

sejenak shj di sini..,

Hari nie kenduri doa selamat..,

WahhhHH..,bgn jer pagy2 td.., ak terkejut tgk halaman umah.. da jd mcm umah kenduri kawen... meja sepuluh biji.. heheh..dari pagy ngemas umah.., sampai tgh ari.. i'am still in t-shirt.. hehe. x siap2 pown...pastu bila owg da ramai dtg.., bwu la kalut nak gi mandi//..:P

i'am waiting for mr. S to come.., but unluckly.., he can not come to my house today .. tp xpe.., sekurang-kurang nye.. ak hapy sgt sbb ley jumpa ngan ramai sedara mara.., kekwn.. makcik.., pakcik yg lama terpisah.. hehe (yeke>>?)

Bmula pas solat jumaat.., sume owg masjid abah ak jemput utk bckan yasin utk doa selamat.. selesai jer bt doa selamat.., sume jemaah masjid start mkn.. pastu.., kwn2 mak ngan abah pown dtg.. jiran tetangga..

hehe..kwn2 dari kmpp ak dtg 1 bus.. caye x..? mcm kenduri apa ntah.. best giler... windu sgt kat diorg.. yg sedeynyer.., masa diorg da nak blk.., ada yg nangys2 lg.. ak pown join sekaki la.. :P masa diorg nak btolak balik kmpp.., ak nek bas n salam ngan Pn Mushitah n Pn Hanna.., besar ati sgt lecturer ak pown dtg..

Majlis nie sampai pkl 9 mlm...bila da mlm.., sume penat.. cian ak tgk mak ngan abah ak.. xlupa jg sedara mara yg byk menolong kemas umah.., basuh pinggan mangkuk.. hehe.. thanks 4 all..

Sypa sy...?

Who am i ..? First time i met people.., most of them will think that i'am a childish , happy go lucky girl n sound like cartoon .. hehe.. Tetapi.., ingin ak tegaskan kat cnie.., the first impression doesn't mean at all for me.. huh..? yeke ..? maybe.. :P

These are the real facts bout me.. :P

1. i have a soft voice like a carto0n.. ( my fwen said.., not me) :P

2.sensitif gurl.,

3.hard to sleep in many places except lecturer hall, class n academic area. haha..

4.silence n light's off is a must to fall in sleep..

5.easily can laugh.., (tp..., kalo first time owg dgr., owg mesty ckp ak gelak x ikhlas) hehe..

6.i was lablelled as.., sleeping princess n also princess of tears.. but then.., i am not such a princess at all ..:P

7.my youngerst brother call me "ank kucing" sbb.., ak suke mkn lauk..:P

8.mak ak pula ckp ak manja .. hah!! xlah.. haha,,

9.suke mkn.., yong tao fu, laksa., pizza hut , pe2 je larh asalkan sodappp..

10.i have 5 teddy bears..

11.suka kanak2.., suka warga emas..hehe..

12.cpt jatuh cinta..dan susah melupakan nyer.. weeeekkkkk.. pe yg ak tulis nieh..

13.dalam hubungan.., persahabatan.., kekeluargaan.., mahupown..,. pe2 je lah.. ak sowg yg berpegang kpd prinsip kesetiaan..

14. this is "farahin's principle" berkuat kuasa da lama.. tp nak berkuat kuasa blk..

• farahin don't want to take a pic with less than 2 guy..


• farahin never wear a ring until she get engaged or married with somebody.


• farahin don't want to get in love relationship before she get married .


• farahin don't want to except any things , money or etc from a guy who are not from her family.


• farahin's girls friend will comes first..

15.love to cook, baked, n sing at the kitchen.. ooppps...

16. i only like to watch cartoon or comedy movie.., cite stress2.., politik n byk konflik xmao k.. xsuka2!!

17. text that keep pronauncing at my mouth is.., "jd..? pe masalahnyer skang..?".., "cewahhHH" .,

18.takowt kuceng.. tp suka tgk muka nyer yg cute tue..:P

that's all i can discribe about me.. for more,, ask my family n fwen la.. hehe..

i love my rumate.. :*

my roommate started to feel sad when i just wrote about my classmate just now.. hehe.. but they dun know that i love then as well ..

It begin with 4 of us..,. ummi, maria , nisa n me.. but then.., nisa got spa in nursing.. she left us first.. not much memory that nisa left for us.. but the main thing that i really remember about her was her gorgeous smile..,

Ummi.., she's a very3 hardworking gurl.. looking at her doing revision n study made me feel scared n tried to persued myself to do so.. heheh.. she's very cute , small , n thing that i can't forget the most about her is.. when she laughing.., she will make this kind of 'hua3' sound.. hehe.. but it's really suite with her adorable face.. :P hurmmn, one more thing.., ummi x pnh berkira ngan ak mahupown maria.. dalam bilik km., brg km .., adalah hak km sama2.. tp.., km sentiasa hormat menghormati antara satu sama len.. Dgn ummi.., ak dpt berkongsi msalah yg ak hadapi.., menceritakn ape jer yg ak rasa dlm aty.., she will try to spend so much time to hear me.., n make me cool dowm.. no wonder..she was selected to be a part of PRD . hehe...

Maria,.. she's really 'ayu' for me.. hehe.. wearing kain batik in our room looking like a 'perempuan melayu terakhir' .things that i really like about her is.., we can discuss a lot of rutin issue .,, make it interesting n not boring at all.. for example.., "polygami in family , why girls doing this n that.., and men also, and much more.." hehe.. i was so impress looking at her,. trying to adapt with kedahan people which is ummi n me.. when she speak with ummi or me.., she will used 'km' instead of " ak" . this is becoz.., ummi n me r speaking kedahan in our ro0m.. but then.., it doesn't mean that she was 'pecah botol budu" heheheheh...

i never expect to see .., sprinkle of diamond will roll down on their cheek when i was check out from that room yesterday.. it really meaning full for me to see that moment becoz.., in that ro0m.., iam the one who's the princess of tears.. luckily i have them as my rumate..

i love ummi and maria so much..

Finally i found her...

I don't know where shell i start this.. it's a long story for a very short period.. have u all ever heard about cow make a bestfriend with buffalo..? One speaking in kedahan n one speaking in terengganuan but it's still make sense..

why is she crying so hard for me..? i know.., absence makes the heart grow fonder.. but then.., it's only a beginning for me to leave her n all my friends..
i don;t care who's her besfren.., coz she's one of mine..

usually.., i will hate to make friend with somebody who's own a similar personality with me..,
but she's different.. absolutely different.. n also better then me.. we always have a same favourite.., have the same opinions in very much thing.., like to laugh very much because only us can understand our own jokes.. hahah..

Eventhough our relationship is like the wind passed by.., but then it really worth to get to know each other.. people will not believe this.., but the fact is.., we can have a great chat n laughing along the way from 'dk' (lecturer hall) to our hostel in about 50o meter non -stop .. hehe..

How lucky am i.., she's not only around me when i'am happy.., but also when my feelings getting worse n worse.. she will be there.., n talk to me.. trying to understand me.. i can share everything with her.. without any doubt..

To all my friend outside there.. pls don't feel hurt with all these statement.., u all also important to me.. Everyone deserve to have their own bestest friend .. :) n to my old bestfriend.., i still love u n it will never change ever..

today is my last day., (in kmpp)

The question is.., it's all about now.. hurmmm.. Da lebyh kurang 5 bln ak bersama kwn2 kat kmpp nie.., mulanya.., km x rapat sgt.. i knew when first time i entered this class.., some of them didn't like me very much.. they felt i;m so childish because i told them that i only like to watch cartoon.. heheh.. but somehow.., we get to know each other.. we become closer., n found out that there is a chemical bond between us..

i want to share with the world about the special being one of H7P2's member..

start from the left .;

Ng : the only chinese girl in my class.., gadis yg pendiam dan mungkin seorg yg pemalu.. tp.., bila dtg part cite pasal lagu korea.., ak bley nampak yg muka dia berseri2 sbb suke sgt.. dia minat lee jun ki..,

Fyra : this is my 'daugther' .., hehe.. ade lah cite2 dlm kuarga H7P2 yg sesetgh owg jer tao.. Fyra nie seorg yg manja .., tp sgt active in outdoor game..,

Kyla : aaahhh.., mengikUt carta kuarga h7p2 , she is the youngest wan's wife.. hehe.. mempunyai personality yg menarik ., dan seorg yg humble ..

Mieza : bini ke 3.. when we come to discribe about her.., first n formost yg korg kena tao.., mieza adalah sorg yg caring.. we can count on her for doing something..

ME : haha.., ak la bini pertama dlm kuarga H7P2 nie.. :P nak tao ak mcm mna.., tanya larh mereka..

Anniss : she is the nanny..:P dia nie kdg2 sensitif.., kdg2 x sgt.. anniss selalu menceriakn suasana... kalo xda dia., klas akan sunyi..

Ammi : skali tgk..,nampak dia mcm seorg yg lasak.. tp...,owg ckp pe tue..?? dalam aty ada taman.. heheh.. ammi seorg yg selasa dgn apa je yg dia nak bt.. hehe.. kdg2 tue .., lwk sgt tgkk..

Shima: akak nie ayu sgt.., bila tgk dia.., rasa tenang.. hehe..

Ain: i really close with her.. suka bt lwk.. yg lwknyer tue,.., kdg2 lwk dia ak sowg jer yg fhm..:P happy go lucky gurl., but her heart is so fragile.. iam touched when looked at her crying faced...

Dayah: dayah x byk ckp dlm klas... seorg yg pemalu.. tp senyuman nyer sgt menenangkan aty..

Imah: imah da sekelas ngan ak sejak ak form 4 masa kat mrsm langkawi ag.. quite clumsy but funny gurl..

thirah: thirah memang special.. hehe.. smart gurl n has self independent..

farhah: farhah nie cute.. berpersonality menarik.. ley la kalo nak bt calon isteri.. hehehe.. (farhah jgn marah)

Aishah: kalo kita tgk dia nampak mcm serious gurl.., but then she can smile easily.. seorg yg carring..

Zikri: hehe.., zikri.., lain drpd yg lain.. baek haty.. suke ngantok dlm kuliah.., tp xkesah la.. sbb kwn ngan dia best.. hehe..

Bab: kome nak tao pasl die nie..? hehe.. bab nie seorg yg creative.., inovatif.., n .. yg tif2 sume kat dia lah.. hehe..

Wan: vs walid.. , wan nie sgt responsible.., kalo kita bg something kat dia .., kita da xyah susah ati pike dia buat ke x.. susah nakl dgr dia nyanyi..hehe..

Puan Hanna: '''' Owkkkey" hehe.., tue ayat puan hanna la tue.. dlm klas puan hanna.., sume org senang ati dgn cara dia conduct klas.. nak tao knp..? alami lah sendiri.. :)

Fiqa: kak fiqa nie memang stylish.. hehe.. kak fiqa pown sorg yg responsible jg.. walaupun x same umo.., tp memang senang nak masuk la ngan pangai kak fiqa nie.. hehe..

Naza: i dun know what's happening to him.. but seriously.., sy lebyh sukakan naza yg dulu drpd yg skang.. sbb dulu dia gila2 skyt.. skang da jd serius skyt.. tp xpe.. human change..

Izwan:haha.. first time tgk., memang nampak dia mcm sorg yg pemalu.. maybe.. tp dlm pd tue.., izwan sowg yg sporting dan ada characternyer yg tersendiri..

fakha: any discribtion..? haha.. fakha sempoi.. dia bley bw diri dia kemana jer... sape2 yg rasa terancam ngan lelaki.. gi la belajar satu ilmu 'mempertahankan diri' ngan dia.. hehe.. only we knew..:P

####.., shukor : de xde dlm pic kat atas.. tp pe yg kita perlu tao pasal shukor.., de mempunyai keyakinan diri yg sgt tinggi.. maybe kdg2 korang akn terkejut or tersentap ngan lawak de.., tp kalo dh biasakan diri.., memang best dpt kwn ngan shukor.. :P

Ak syg kamu..,

Hidup nie.., bukanlah mengisahkan tentang cinta buta semata-mata.. pernahkah kita sebagai sorg insan bermuhasabah diri dan melihat di sekeliling betapa btuahnya hidup yg kita lalui ini.. Cinta itu tak bermakna kalo cinta kita itu bukan kerana yg Maha Esa.. cinta kepadanya..., bererti cinta yg pnh makna..



Daripada Abu Hamzah Anas ibn Malik r.a , khadam Rasulullah SAW, daripada Nabi SAW , baginda bersabda : seseorg kamu tidak benar-benar beriman sehingga dia benar2 mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana dia mengasihi dirinya sendiri.



Ingin ak zahirkan di sini .., kasih syg ak kepd mereka yg ak kasihi..



1. Mak dan Abah .

Sehingga sekarang sampai selamanya.., ak merasakan bhw betapa betuahnya ak dilahirkan dalam keluarga ak nie.. Hidup km x terlalu kaya.., dan x terlalu miskin.. pnh dgn kesederhanaan.. Namun..., kasih syg yg ak peroleh drpd kedua ibu bapa ak melebihi segala2nya..

Mereka sanggup berkorban apa sj untk ak dan adik beradik ak.. Mak.., seorg yg sgt tabah ., bg ak ..., dia seumpama permata yg bersinar di dlm terang mahu pun gelap.. Abah .., seorg yg tegas.., tp disebalik wajahnya yg garang .., tersemsembunyi suatu kasih syg yg x ternilai..



2.arwah tok.

sejak 5 thn.., ak tinggal ngan arwah tok ak atas sbb2 tertentu.. arwah sgt penyang.., sentuhannya sj bley menusuk ke dalam hati.. sedey.., yg teramat sedey apabila arwah kembali kerahmatullah masa ak 11 thn.. tp ak harus redha dan terima qada dan qadar.. ak slalu doakan arwah ditempatkan bersama org2 yg beriman.. amiin..



3.kakak.

kakak ak best.. ak btuah dpt kakak mcm kakak ak.. dia penyayng ..,supportive.., selalu kuatkan ak saat ak terlalu lemah.. temankan ak bila ak sedey.. care about my health.. ala., stakat gaduh adik beradik skyt2 tue xde masalah la.., asam garam kehidupan kan.. tp dah besaw2 nie jarang sgt dh.. ak syg sgt kat kakak ak..



4.adik.

dia nie degil skyt.., panas baran.. tp mcm mana pown ak tetap sygkan dia.. walaupun km kerap sgt gaduh.., but his is the fisrt one who's gonna miss me when i'm not around.. dia juga seorg yg ringan tulang .., dan senang nak minta tlg kalo masa tue mood dia tgh owkey.. heheh.. ak tao.., adik ak tue .., dia mampu berjaya dlm hidup dia kalo dia btol2 berusaha..



5. makteh dan paksu.

6 thn ak tinggal diumah arwah tok.. dan makteh dan paksu adalah antara tenaga yg menjaga ak dan kakak masa tue.. mereka melayan ak seperti anak mereka sendiri..pengorbanan n budi mereka terhadap ak dan kakak memang x terbls..

6.keluarga ku..,

i'am happy to be a part of my family.. walaupun sederhana.., tp pnh dgn kegembiraan dan kasih syg..baek keluarga seblh abah.., mahupun sblh mak..mereka membuatkan ak rasa yg ak masih diperlukan di dunia nie..

7. my besfriend..
i don't want to write any discribtion other she/he.. someone might be hurt with it.. but i love my besfriend so much.. if u don't know who she/he is... u can never know it ever.. but my bestfriend know that i write this for her/him..

8. my friend..

i can never live without them.. even sometime they could hurt me very much.., but i know.., somehow.. i'll need them as well.. i love all my friend..

Here it is..

Hari nie.., ak br mempelajari sesuatu dlm idop.. 'dare to face the reality' . ini bukan tentang cinta.., atau tentang suatu jenaka lalu.. tp ini adalah tentang hidup ak yg akan bermula esok.. dulu.., ak seorg yg yakin.., periang.., dan penuh ketenangan. tetapi.., sejak hari itue .., ak selalu berharap yg ak x pnh lalui masa antara " abes spm hingga amek result" . ak pasti xkan dpt maafkan kesilapan ak itu.., kdg kala .., ak rasa ., hidup ak nie.., mcm dah berakhir.. tp.., dgn owg2 yg sygkan ak disekeliling ak.., diorg bt ak jd kuat blk..



hidop kita xkan berakhir segali kita x akhirinya.., jgn menangys utk org yg x memberi makna dlm idop kita .., jgn menangys utk owg yg x hargai dan xsygkan kita.. segali kita ingtkan maha Esa ., selagi kita percaya Dia disisi kita.., tiada kuasa yg setanding dgn Nya.. jd mengapa harus kita takowt..? itu adalah antara kata2 yg ak dgr drpd owg2 yg sygkan ak.. ak bersyukur.., mereka maseh disisi ak saat ak dlm ranjau kesedyhan..



niat ak.., setibanya ak di sana.. ak nak pdm kan apa yg telah berlaku.., apa yg telah ak bt masa tue,,. dan mulakan hidop yg br.. bukan sekadar mengejar cita2..., tetapi.., ak jg memasang niat utk menjd anak yg solehah sepulangnya ak nanty..